And so it begins......

I am at the stage in my pregnancy where I am sick. The smell of people cooking their microwave lunches at work is almost unbearable. I also just can't seem to get enough sleep. The other night I went to bed at 8:00pm and didn't get out of bed till 7:00am. I haven't done that since before Gracie was born. But all I know is that this is all temporary and the result of it all is well worth it!

P.S I have already started to watch Birth Day and Maternity Ward MARATHONS and weep the entire episode. I don't know about any of you, but I feel the need to torture myself watching these. I convince myself that they are just a wealth of knowledge and prepare me for the unpredictable.......?

Here is a little article that was written about these shows:
As a childbirth educator and doula, I had hoped that television shows like The Learning Channel's (TLC's) “Birth Story” and Discovery Channel's “Birth Day” would help dispel some of the medical mystique that seems to surround birth in our culture. Rather than help women view birth as the normal life event that it is, to my horror, “reality” shows have made birth appear more medical than ever.

While “Birth Story” and “Birth Day” have managed to cause enough concern among expectant parents, they pale in comparison to the real terror offered in each episode of TLC's “Maternity Ward.” This show can single-handedly convince most women that their bodies are incapable of birthing without major medical intervention and that they would be crazy not to want all the technology they can get their hands on. After all, their babies' lives—and possibly their very own—depend on it.
Occasionally, I force myself to sit through an episode of “Maternity Ward.” What do I see? The cameras follow residents and attending obstetricians at high-risk medical centers around the US. The stories are told from the point of view of care providers who are overworked and frazzled. The show is not about women and families; rather, it's about the people providing medical care.
In “Maternity Ward,” no laboring women are depicted out of bed. Whether they are in early labor or pushing, they are flat on their backs. Machinery is everywhere. Blood pressure cuffs are on; electronic fetal monitors are strapped onto bellies. Legs are draped, and support people are off to the side. Heart-racing music plays whenever something “dramatic” happens. The mothers look terrified. I don't blame them. Within five minutes of watching the show, I am terrified for them.

Do any of you remember this poem?

All I wanted was to have my two!
My Girl, My Boy
and then I was through.
But something within
has second guessed my plan.
This hunger, this want
for a third in my hand.
Some friends and family
think the idea is lewd.
To that I only think
of a baby boy named Jude.
So I start this blog
with 2 peas in my pod.
With hopes & prayers
the third comes from God!

I wrote this poem for my very first post over a year ago. WOW a year ago. I have been wanting to have a baby for 21 months. ( 1 year of begging my husband, then 9 months of trying)

BUT NOW THE WAIT IS OVER....OH YES THAT IS RIGHT....I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

Story goes as follows:

• I was having severe pain in my right breast (sorry male readers) so I did a self exam and found a lump. I was so upset. I made an appointment for the very next day. I went in the room and she did all the normal OBGYN questions and then she asked me the one I dread " Could you be pregnant?" I said " We have been trying for 9 months so I doubt it."

So she tells me to go and "leave a sample to be safe".

• Five minutes later she walks in the room, all nonchalant and said Congratulations.
• What????????????
• Your pregnant.
• Are you kidding me???????? as my eyes start to fill up quickly
• Um no mam, we don't kid about things like that.
• I started to laugh at her and cry at the same time.

So I had to go back to work, and act like nothing had changed drastically in my life which is very hard. Many of the girls would come to my desk and ask if I would like to go out and smoke, which I would reply that I quit with a huge smile on my face.

My work day was over so I ran to BabiesRus and purchased a Big Brother shirt for Evan and when I got home I took him upstairs and put it on him. I then told him to stay upstairs until I called him so that I could go down stairs and see my husbands face. When Josh read the shirt he looked at me and I was already crying again. And he asked me " Are you serious?" I said "Sir I don't kid about things like that." he he

So last night we went to every family member's house, took Evan's coat off and watched their excitement. The funnest part was watching them read it, think about it, then get it!

• I am due on September 13, 14th.

So I WILL have all of my children by the age of thirty!

God is great and I thank him for giving me the miracle of life once more. I truely praise him all the days of my life. Without God I am nothing, but with him anything is possible.

New Year- New Template

I thought it was time for a face lift. This one just cheered me up! I hope you like it also. If you have any suggestions I would love to hear them.

Thanks

Robin Williams on Obama's Election

This is so funny!!!

Happy New Year!

At this time of year most people reflect on the year past, and try to come up with ways to make the next year better. So I decided to share mine with you!

• Spend more "quality" time with my mom. Although I may talk to my mom MULTIPLE times a day I don't really "do" anything with her by myself. So this year I hope to spend 1 day a month with her. Maybe a movie, dinner, antiquing....etc.

• Try not to let things bother me so much. Let things slip of my shoulder and try to be more carefree.

• Workout at least 2-3 times a week, 4 times would be ideal! Reason being is that a group of my girlfriends and I have a goal to run a half marathon this year. What a great accomplishment that would be!

• QUIT SMOKING.....how can you run a marathon being a smoker?????.....

• Be more faithful to my Lord and Savior. Although I have already commited my life to Jesus, it is so easy to get side tracked. I have found myself not wanting to get up for church. I need to make a commitment to be more dedicated and to also study the word and to live by it.

• Get rid of this grudge I have with a co-worker. It is to a point where I can't even be in the same room with her. When she opens her mouth I want to SCREAM SHUT UP.... (boy it is really bad) So I need to be more kind and really see past all the things that drive me nuts about her. Jesus said to love thigh neighbor as yourself.

• Try to be the stronger in all ways. Physically, mentally, emotionally and most important spiritually.

• READ MORE... turn of the T.V and just induldge in a great book. I can go anywhere and escape by just picking up a book and opening the cover. New adventures are waiting and knowledge to soak up simply by reading!!!

• Make my friendships I have closer and also try to make some new ones. A good girlfriend is hard to come by.

• Work on my marriage. All marriages have their ups and downs, but I will strive to have more ups this year. I just want to bless my husband and in return I know that he will bless me also.
  

SO THAT IS IT. IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SHARE SOME OF YOURS I WOULD LOVE TO READ SOME.