Today I turn 30

Well it is true..... I am 30 today. I don't really know what to think about that. I know most people say that "age is just a number" or that "you are as old as you feel". My response to that is "to each their own".
Although I have accomplished alot in my life such as getting married and having 3 beautiful and healthy children, I can't help to feel a little unsettled. In all the chaos of my life I feel that maybe I have lost myself. Today I am reflecting on how I got to where I am and what led me up to this. The bad times the good ones and the in-betweens have all crossed my mind today. ( it is only 7:30am)
I think that my lack of enthusiasm is due to the fact that I am not at a job that I love. Although it is a very convenient job it is not something I LOVE doing. I miss interacting with other people. Right now I think working at the grocery store sounds pretty appealing. No, but what I really want to do is work at a salon. I would love the company of woman all day! A place to get my creative side working again! I have said many times before that doing hair is like art on a head!
Anyway...... I know I may be a downer today, but I am feeling a little down to be honest.
The only thing that keeps me smiling is my little ones that bring constant humor to my life! That I am truly grateful for!